Daily musings and updates of a self employed single mum.
Hello! With school holidays in full swing my online presence has been a bit on the quiet side. Still doing the odd day, but mainly I've been working on my upcoming exhibition. Which for now, I'd like to keep a secret.
It's been a strange process, working on pieces with no expectation to sell. It's been process of self exploration. Examining my life, and my journey through motherhood. Life, love and disappointment. Mental health. There is so much pressure on women these days to be everything. A wife, a worker, a mother, a friend, a cleaner, a homemaker, and at the same time be beautiful, thin, strong, unemotional, brave, busy, positive. It's a boiling pot, and sometimes it gets to be too much.
What I have realised, is that I can't be all those things, and it's ok. So long as I am ok, and my daughter is ok, I need to stop putting pressure on myself to be 'on it' all the time. Behind the flare and flurry on social media, is a single mother with worries and stresses and self doubt. So stepping back now and again, to just paint and be - is ok!
My new work is a story of those feelings. Feeling bullied by society, drowning under the pressure to succeed, and constantly feeling judged. It is symbolic, but quietly still and curious in it's subjects.
The exhibition opens November 2019.
This month was the launch of the Oor Wullie Big Bucket Trail!
On the 17th June, Scotland became dotted with 200 Oor Wullie sculptures. Here is me with 'Help ma Bees!'. With the environmental debate at the forefront of peoples minds, the plight of bee's is something I wanted to draw attention to.
He is situated on Castle Terrace, right under our beautiful Edinburgh Castle!
The trail ends on the 30th August, then he will be auctioned to raise money for The Edinburgh Children's Hospital charity.
What a whirlwind couple of months! All exciting but eeeesh! Trying to find a slot to squeeze in a holiday but when you're self employed, there is a slight unnerving feeling of not being able to stop, because if you stop, it will end. But, it's all about time management right? Getting there but winging it like crazy!
Had a couple of really lovely commissions recently, a restaurant, pets, portraits. Will be revealing more over the coming weeks on all my social medias - so stayed tuned!
This month I have been absolutely engulfed with work. That saying 'when it rains, it pours' couldn't not have been more accurate! I was delighted to announce at the beginning of the month that my design was selected to be part of the nationwide Oor Wullie Big Bucket Art Trail.
A number of artists have been chosen to paint/design Oor Wullie sculptures, which will then be placed in different locations in Scotland's cities from June until August. Then in September, they will be auctioned off, and proceeds will be donated to children's hospital charities. I have been truly honoured to be part of this amazing experience.
I finally waved goodbye to my finished Wullie on Tuesday - after a hectic two weeks of late nights, and early starts. Along with him, I have had four illustration commissions, a logo/branding design, a makers market, a portrait commission, client work, teaching and waitressing. I am slightly exhausted, but powering through and enjoying the sunshine. Schools are back, so normality resumes.
I think it is about time I started blogging my work. My thinking is that if I log my progress, I will feel more grounded and give myself focus and goals.
My first exhibition is scheduled for November 2019. This will be my first solo show since graduating in 2008. I'm , but excited. I am hoping that it will unlock a part of me which has been hidden away since becoming a mother. A strong voice, with a message and story to tell. So watch this space!